Monday, June 28, 2010


Slowly adapting the new environment,the new teaching method in art stream
Quite tough at the beginning,somehow,i adapt well so far 
less update due to tones of essays to be finished everyday
seem i have to buy new pens every week haha
ok that is a joke**

Ohya,good news to share
my another charity campaigne had just approved by school's principal
ohyea,wish me luck to implement that tremendously and smoothly

did mention about imprudent ibanese girl ealier?who hate me and keep gossiping about me?
she has stopped that.fortunately.
though i dont really care as she is just an allien to me
still,its affect my mood in class,yeap she is myh classmate now =X
shit.i know.unpleasant fly blocking my sight,guarrrr!

see you :)

countless facts to be memorised
my memory card is getting full now
almost blast
oh my godness
God knows how exhausted am i 

Monday, June 21, 2010


Previously in L6S1,switched to L6S2.Sincerely saying,it is very enjoyable being a student in L6S2,and today i had to leave my favourite class.T.T 
I was on pins and needles waiting to be informed whether my application to switch to art is accepted or not.As what all teachers had told me,i had the least chance to be accepted as i score quite well in science subject.(SPM)
But then,hooray!!My application is accepted by JPN lar!hehehehe!hohohohoho!
SO!i moved to art 1 straight away,with jessica,a fellow who had a dream as mine :)!yo dude:)
What a dissapointment,that class is lame,we were suffering for this very first day.
And the teacher?ugh-.- ruined my mood.==lll(i only had met few,2 in precise,obviously anticipation is declining==**)
Anyway,we are there to chase dream,not expecting a truly competent teacher and friendly classmates.
Its depend how u judge it anyway.And in form 6,we are not going to be as dependant as in form 1 to 5 thou.

I think we will isolate and alienate ourself from the others except few of others which is acceptable.
SO!here is the embark in law field after this,the nearest biggest stumbling block is we have to achieve 4 flat in stpm.If u expecting art stream is EASY,no big deal,you are WRONG!
I spent a month in science stream,so can make a fair judgement on this issue.The class i staying in now,having the package that including these subjects:
sejarah,perniagaan,Bm,PA,MUET.Do note that PA and MUET are compulsory subs.
The contains of bm astonished me -.- You know what?We have to memorise the history of bahasa melayu,the categories bla bla bla.Intrepretion of puisi all sort of thg,easy you say?salute you-.-
Next!sejarah!wow the most challenging sub among all.WHY?
4 thick books including TAMADUN DUNIA,sejarah msia,Sej Asia Tenggara,TAMADUN ISLAM.
All books are thicker than form5 text,no obj for sure,each essay ques,u need to write 2 full pages.
And we need to memorise all of that 4 thick books within this 1 and half year,and no separation of topics,all topics tested randomly** in STPM.
If i dint achive a 4 flat,there is no entry for me to take law course in gov U.
Grab this chance,perform my self.

I put my future on RISK by switching to L6A1.very limited jobs**
ANyway,i demand for ONE,only ONE.
LAW :)

Sunday, June 20, 2010


Clearly remember how it started
it ended with another start
and re started with another end
it sounds silly but its so true

No regret but have to 
Don know why but it had happened
i broke your heart yesterday
and you broke my heart today

i call this as a revenge
or shall i call it as a retribution
i cried without wonder
i clearly know why with satisfaction

And today i firmly decide to move on
refuse to be in dilemma
refuse to make any changes
move on and never turn back

i had a dream 
a shot that no one could ever imagine
its tremendous that no one could expect
that will i turn it into real vision

i know you are not what i desired
but my heart had betrayed me
and you scratched my heart
it hurted and realised it's a dumb-ass

so now my heart no longer a nuisance
it agreed to let me move on
without doubt,without hesitation
glad you are back,my heart 

so now my heart n i stand together
make an agreement
 get a victory as planned
that belong to my heart and I

Friday, June 18, 2010

Tun Dr Mahathir bin Mohamad

Oh ya,stop wondering,we are going to talk about ours fouth prime minister today.And let start with introduction about him that i copied from wikipedia.

Tun Dr. Mahathir bin Mohamad born 10 July 1925[1]) (Jawi:محتير بن محمد) was the fourth Prime Minister of Malaysia. He held the post for 22 years from 1981 to 2003, making him Malaysia's longest-serving Prime Minister, and one of the longest-serving leaders in Asia.[2] Mahathir's political career spanned almost 40 years, from his election as a Malaysian federalMember of Parliament in 1964, until his resignation as Prime Minister in 2003.
As Prime Minister, he was credited with engineering Malaysia's rapid modernisation.[3] During his term in office, he was considered by some as one of Asia's most influential leaders.[4] Mahathir was also widely known as an outspoken critic of Western-style globalization.
I stumble acrossed his blog,and i read the whole post that he wrote to show the agreement towards the fact uttered by professor Madya Dr Azmi Sharom, A lecturer in law of UM.Saying that Dr Mahathir is unmature based on what he had spoken.

''Sebenarnya tidak ada apa-apa, itu hanya untuk menakutkan orang Melayu sahaja kerana tidak mungkin kaum terbesar di negara ini boleh menjadi minoriti di negara sendiri.

"Kalau kita lihat secara realistiknya, orang Melayu masih lagi menjadi majoriti 
dalam semua aspek jadi mustahil untuk menjadi minoriti," katanya.

read what he wrote:Dr mahathir's blog
In brief,he was agreed what professor had said in some ways.
I got no idea upon this case.Have to admit that i failed to keep abreast of recent news that happening in msia as well as other countries.Anyway,The point that i would like to emphasize is that i adore leader that wiling to take the full responsiblity to what he had done or said or similars.Believe or not,its take alots to do so.DUE TO SO CALL PRIDE.Being a leader in clubs in school, i deal with my school's principal   oftenly.I encountered a lot unfavourable situation.And after lots of analysis cracking my head wondering WHY and WHY.I realised one thing,ok he is so care about his 'FACE'.dIrect translation from chinese** which refer to pride/dignity.Somehow,his definition or views upon this might be wrong someway.Im sure u must be thinking that who am i to say so or think so.Hey fellow,i said i DEALED with him in countless time,and this is my personal thoughts anyway,no offensive intention.

So in a nutshell,on my point of view,being a leader,without having the ability to reflect her/his ownself,he/she is a failure.self-sense is important before lead others.And this is what i am trying to practise so badly.(i do have it bt sumtime i dont)

 real leader faces the music, even when he doesn't like the tune.

Leaders must be tough enough to fight, tender enough to cry, human enough to make mistakes, humble enough to admit them, strong enough to absorb the pain, and resilient enough to bounce back and keep on jesse jackson

' A loser say hundred of excuses,A winner say zero of excuse'

And this kind of leader impressed me :

Follower:hey we cant do this??how??how about we cancell the whole thing?
Follower two:hey!come on!we face alot of obstacles how?
Follower 3:see?!We had tried ours best and somehow that irritating decision maker bann us.DARN1
Follower 4:could you say something?we all in max anger now.How we going to deal with it?
LEADER:ok i understand,calm and get thing right,here the solution,first we need to......and then........
please dont say no before we have a try or else we will keep wonder why!ok!now!get up and do you works.We do expect obstacles before we start this,Now we just have to fix it!ok?!people!**grinned.

Do u see the difference between follower and leader?im not trying to tell that followers are loser,just giving an irony.

The strongest will be the survivor.
The survivor will be the conqueror.

A sport game call basketball

Did i ever mention that i love basketball ?BUT i seldom play,sigh discontendedly.


micheal jordan goes for a slam dunk

Basketball is a team sport in which two teams of five active players each try to score points against one another by propelling a ball through a 10 feet (3 m) high hoop (the goal) under organized rules. Basketball is one of the most popular and widely viewed sports in the world.
Points are scored by shooting the ball through the basket above; the team with more points at the end of the game wins. The ball can be advanced on the court by bouncing it (
dribbling) or passing it between teammates. Disruptive physical contact (fouls) is not permitted and there are restrictions on how the ball can be handled (violations).
Through time, basketball has developed to involve common techniques of shooting, passing and dribbling, as well as players' positions, and offensive and defensive structures. Typically, the tallest members of a team will play
center, the shortest member usually plays "point guard" while often the best ball handlers are guards. While competitive basketball is carefully regulated, numerous variations of basketball have developed for casual play. In some countries, basketball is also a popular spectator sport.
While competitive basketball is primarily an indoor sport, played on a 
basketball court, less regulated variations have become exceedingly popular as an outdoor sport among both inner city and rural groups.

slam dunk (or simply a dunk) is a type of basketball shot that is performed when a player jumps in the air and manually powers the ball through the basket with one or both of his hands, then often grabs the rim shortly after the ball passes through the hoop (a dunk is still being performed if the rim is not grabbed, as long as the athlete powers the ball through the hoop manually).

The Road Not Taken

 Among all the poems i learnt in form 5,there is one poem that leave a deep impression within myself.I believe everyone of us will experience this dilemma,when we have to choose a track for our future.And it is really a matter to us and thus we struggle so hard,to ensure we make a right choice,if we dint even give a try,we will keep wonder why.Once we step out,there is no more turning back,what we need to do is keep forwarding,whatever deals we need to deal with,be ready.When meet stumbling block,shift to high gear instead of withdrawing yourself from harsh and unfavourable can make a change.And there's no else conquering your life except your own.Just like what Winston Churchill said,we are masters of ours fate,we are captains of ours souls.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

By Robert Frost.

Ponder and keep ponder.And it is the time for me to make a last choice.A decision that could make all difference.Whatever happen in the future,i know i cant regret upon it.And i promised i wont.Because the choice is made by me.I had the full responsible upon it,No one could know me better than myself.

Its all about what you want to be.Who you want to be,Where you want to be.

The future is depends on what we do in present'' Mahatma Ghandi

First say to yourself what you would be;
and then do what you have to do.


Goals are the fuel in the furnace of achievement.
Brian Tracy, Eat that Frog

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Am a choleric

The description for The Cholerics:

If you are a choleric, you are a dynamic, self-motivated leader who can set your sights on a target and relentlessly pursue it until success is achieved. You are a strong-willed individual who makes decisions quickly and decisively, and who readily and easily grasps difficult concepts and strategies. Learning comes quickly to you, and you like to take action immediately. You think logically and pragmatically, and are sometimes accused of "rolling over" people once you have set a plan in motion. You do not readily reveal deep emotions—except anger. Cholerics are often accused of being stubborn, domineering, and dictatorial. You demand loyalty from your friends, and thrive when you are in control. Franklin Delano Roosevelt was a choleric president: "There is nothing I love as much as a good fight," he famously said.

Ostacles lead me shift to high gear 

I will stand high enough to let you realise how shine am i 

Im the second!

List of sibling:

Siaw Ling
Siaw Lian(ME)
Siaw Yinn
Siaw Ieek
Fung Maye
Shee Yii
En Qi

恩琪 :) 你可真幸福,有那么多姐姐疼 :D
希望以后的我们都是很成功的 :)
I always know dad n mom's first prior wish is to see how we get victory in ours life :)

Mummy daddy,that will come true,i promised.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Its too fast,really too fast,barely can accept the truth that 3 weeks of holidays are almost come to the end.omg!-.-
my holidays?PRODUCTIVE enough for me :) but see the face above?dreadfully tired :( bt its worth,:everythg has a price.

I learnt to be a mom,seriously.ONE WRD to describe.


Compare to studies?

 study is more on mentality while being mom needs alot of physical strength especially doing endless housechores.

I adore great mom out thr who able to take a good care on family and successfully built amazing career as well.Its really a WOW for me :) 
And i hope to be one too in the future.

The most meaningful thg i had experienced within this holidays is putting myself in mom's shoe.It's incredible,but it's a fact!

Whoots what's next??!
3 more sub-topics of math T to be analysed and over 25 STPM's math question to be completed.This MATH seem appeared in every post i posted.Significaning how UNnegligible it is.:( aiks.

It has value of noteworthiness =/

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Malay Wedding

Last night,Dad asked me to represent him to attend a wedding reception.And the next morning,when i was still enjoying dreaming,oh shit i was awaken by sounds of calling,Its from my malay friend.

Original version: in Bahasa Sarawak:

HER:ah lian??ko pergi sik katok?bapa ko madah ko pergi nak?
me:har??aok aok....ko pegi juak kah?bila??
HER:aok,mandi gik kau,lak ku nungu di rumah....

translated:in english:

HER:Ah lian??are u going later??ur dad said u r goin??
me:har??yaya!are u goin too?
HER:yeap,go and take ur bath,i wait u at my house.

note:i was shouted in my bedroom,while she is just outside.I cant let her in n see my messy sleeping look,right?yea damn right.And another thing,I do communicate in BAHASA SARAWAK with my bumiputera friends.i can speak bahasa sarawak very fluent since i was raised in a village area call Kpg Muara Tuang. some streching and entered bathroom.A quick shower and dress myself up.HEY!its a malay wedding!You cant expect me wearing night dress,and it's morning,i bet everyone in the wedding would just star at me this little chinese fellow who dont respect their traditionally customs if i wear that.So,i end up wearing this:

Grab my key and entered my aged car,heading to the groom's house.When we arrived,it was still early,after 'bersalam' with the welcomer who oftenly is the parents of the bride/groom,we went into the house.
And i was overjoyed when saw my ex.student,name syarmimi.She is malay but can understand a little bit of mandarin.

Doing nothing while waiting for the arrival of bride and groom,I done some exploration about malay wedding.
I saw a group of malays kids which one of them is my ex.student,they all in orange and were chit-chatting.I approached them and start asking questions.Hazard  a guess that they should be the 'Kompang Group' which play role to welcome the bride and groom.

'so, you guys are kompang boys right?what is this?that??...and so on so on...'

The sort of cap thing i wore on my head is tengkolok.Dont tell me you had never ever seen it?unless you never seen malaysian ringgit's note before.Perhaps you are,i attached a RM50 note for you.

As what i have said earlier,we came too early,the food was not ready yet.My friend that i mentioned earlier was out of time,thus she suggested not to wait.But then,the welcomer insisted to invite us to eat before leaving,and thus we ate some of dishes only.

yellowish is pajeri nanas(if not mistaken)
orangish is chicken cooked with sauce
brownish is rendang(beef)
The rice colour should be in orange,which is nasi briyani.